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I woke up at 5:30 and made my way over to the gym for a 7 mile speedy run. It went awesome! I felt strong and powerful, basically the complete opposite of how I had felt on Monday. I foam rolled right after and I’m feeling like I’m slowly doing better. I’m feeling optimistic…I just need to keep up with foam rolling and babying my foot…easier said then done. I always know I need to in the back of my head but sometimes I feel so beat by the time my workout is over that I dont want to do anything.

Anyways, not a bad start to my hump day!

I had snickerdoodle oatmeal with PB and raisins for breakfast:

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I’m always so cold at work that no matter how much I might love my chobani yogurt, this oatmeal breakfast is always a little more tempting because I know it will warm me right up. πŸ™‚

Lunch wasnt anything special…just a turkey and brie sandwich (I finished my wheel of brie today, time to overplay another lunch):

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Served with a side of another massive orange that hit the spot:

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As I was sitting at work today, I got to thinking about our perception of beauty. I know thats a general term…but let me elaborate.

I love reading my celebrity blogs everyday. Before I even visit my favorite healthy living/running blogs, I’m checking out my celebrity gossip blogs. I love reading up on celebrities and knowing everything that is going on.

Obviously, we all know there is so much pressure on females (especially in America) to be “thin” and “perfect”. We are faced with beautiful, rail-thin females in magazines, online, on television…everywhere essentially. It leads to this crazy view of body image…and I used to be exceptionally consumed by it. I’m not saying that I’m perfect and content with myself all the time…but I am much more positive about myself then I ever have been. I dont know that I’m really meant to be thin…I think if it takes so much effort to keep my weight down, its probably not where my body wants to be. In the end, I want to be healthy and happy.

So, because I’m a size 10/12, does that make me fat, or less beautiful?

I have no issues talking about my size because I’m proud of how far I’ve come. I used to be a size 28, my size now feels probably like what a size 2 would feel to most people.

When I first started losing weight, I had this goal that I would get down to a size 2/4. I was obsessed with it. I wanted to be just as thin as the celebrities I loved staring at, I wanted this bikini ready, perfect body.

It took me years to realize that it was unrealistic. Imagine how much stress your body goes through going from almost 400 pounds to under 200 pounds? My skin stretched out alot, and I have the loose skin and stretch marks to prove it. I could save up money to pay for surgery…but in the end, is it worth it? Is having that “perfect” body going to help me feel any better about myself inside? Did I feel happier when I was starving 99% of the time, chasing after this unrealistic portrayal of beauty that a magazine/television/movies says I should be?

So…who cares what society says. I feel beautiful and thats all that matters.

Mad Men is one of the shows that I’ve currently been obsessed with…and I feel like the most beautiful person ever is Christina Hendricks, who portrays Joan on the show:


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Image via InStyle

Shes probably around my size and I love that she is curvy and yet exceptionally beautiful. Having meat on your bones is sexy!

Dont be so hard on yourself, the best thing you can ever do is love yourself and have a healthy mindset πŸ™‚

———————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————-I was pretty hungry when I got home, so right away I heated myself up some leftovers from last night:

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Another big ol’ dollop of greek yogurt on the side. I snacked on some tortilla chips and salsa while I was waiting for it to heat up.

I’m about to retreat to the couch and play some video games…yes, i’m one of those geeks. But I’ve loved playing the Final Fantasy series since I was a teenager, Im excited to finally be playing it on PS3:

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Have a great night everyone!

Tell me….

What was your workout today?

Do you struggle with self-image? Who do YOU find beautiful?

Do you like playing video games at all?